Soooo... Its been over a year. A very many things have changed in this year. I feel a lot of those things have been for the better. I guess I should start from where I have left off. So, here goes...

The day I moved in was rough... I cried a lot... I missed my mommy. I cried so much that day. I stayed in my apartment for 3 days. When I finally left my apartment, it was to get food... go figure ( anyone who knows me, knows that I eat sooo much ). I went to walmart... It was 10:30pm, and I dubbed this place as "the scary walmart". This place had some of the most white trash people in there... half of the lights were out, and it has the weirdest layout I have seen for a walmart. I still don't care for it, even though they have remodeled.

Anyways, I spent most of my first semester with a GSA on campus, and helped them out. there was a lot of fights, and by the end of the year I was made the membership lesion for the group.. but it was shut down by the student org people... so now we are SASUE! lol! I'm a co-president.

But yeah I made friends with a girl named Emily. She and I were BEST friends. We even worked together. But she went missing for a while... I finally found out that she is back in her home town, because some stuff as gone down... but that is neither here nor there.

I later met a girl who lived across the hall who is names Kerry! I luv her face! LOL!! She is yet another of my hags... who would have thought. The first party I went to was at her apt, and she introduced me to one of my new loves. HOOKAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are now hookah whores! I also am sad, because she has moved to about 3 min down the road. Her and her Boyfriend Matty moved in together. I miss them, I can't just go across the hall to see them, now I have to go see them...

In the time have been here I have had two boys in my life. The first one I would rather not talk about... :/ he got on my nerves long story short. He still gets on my nerves... he randomly text me and was being a deusch... I did meet one good guy from being with him though. His name is Javier (pronounced hah-vee-air) But I called him Javie. He is a big anime and videogame nerd. He and I got along better than the deusch... We would have ended up dating if we both felt that it was wrong. But he is a good friend. One day I was snowed in at school, and my car was low on gas. He came and got me and let me stay at his apartment with him and his roommate.She was nice, but she stayed in her room for the most part. But now Javie has moved to North Carolina... :,(

Now on to the great guy named Nick! He is my baby. He and I met through GSA/Facebook. Now went took a while to make sure it could work, but we have been together since May 18th. It will be four months in eleven days! I know that we can be together for a while. We are a lot alike, and we are just fine with doing nothing. most of the time we play video games and smoke hookah. He even has a little hookah!!!!!!! XD

Through him I have met his friend Jake. The two of them have gotten me into something that I have wanted to do for years... D&D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are such nerds... I host D&D night on Saturday at my apartment. SOO MUCH FUN!!

Through Jake I met another guy named Josh. He and I get along great, considering that he is a breeder. LOL! He has hooked me up in so many ways. I recently just got internet cable and a laptop. He hooked me up with the installation, because he does dish installs. He knows a lot about computers, and helped me pick this laptop out.

Anyways, I have rambled on enough. I know that I havn't talked about Jane or Erin, but thats because I love them, and they know that I'm too ADHD to write very long. this took forever because of the TV. lol! I love you guys! BYEBYE!!!!!

So, I move on Saturday. I am really writing this to let people know that I wont have internet for a while. Not until after the 12th(?), and I might be able to get on a little here and ther, but I doubt it. I am really going to miss you guys while I am not able to talk to you. But I will come back. Maybe I'll have a few things done that I need to get done(like my blog entry). All in all, it will be scary, and I will need you all so much when I come back, and I am POSITIVE I will have more issues when I come back home to you guys. I love you all!

I was tagged by EatMyDreams

Original Tag by ^Helewidis & *GrayGlow
Rules of the game:

- Choose a singer/band/group -
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)

I choose... Jack Johnson

1. Are you male or female?
"Fortunate Fool"

2. Describe yourself.
"Sexi Plexi"

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
"Good People"

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
"What You Thought You Need"

5. Describe your current relationship.
"Better Together"

6. Where would you want to be now?
"Adrift"

7. How do you feel about love?
"Hope"

8. What's your life like?
"Sitting, Waiting, Wishing"

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
“Sleep Through the Static”

10. Say something wise.
"Dreams Be Dreams"

So, I'm tagging Erin88, Janeathan, Alchemyisascience, sk8rccd, snapdragonsoda, and singinchic7.

So, TAG, YOU'RE IT!!!!!!!

So, I thought it was over. I guess not. It has been a little over a month sence he broke up with me. I should have broken up with him, but I was willing to let his infidelity go. You know forgive but not forget.

I get a call from Erin88 this morning. She got a text asking if I had found a place to live for school. It was Jesse. He always promised that even if something did happen between up that I could still live there, at the appt I was going to live with him.

He owned up to that. I don't want to be there with him, and he is moving, but he signed the lease and still has to pay. So he is offering it to me.I told him thanks, but no thanks.

He replies with "I am not going to just leave you stranded. I care too much for you to let that happen." That cuts to the bone. I still love him(aginst my will)... I hate that he is doing this to me. I ask him why and he says, "Its just I don't want to be on bad terms. You are an amazing guy."

At this point he is just rubbing salt into the wound he made when he ripped out my heart(emo moment, sorry). I'm tired of this...

I figured that this would happen, but I thought that it was going to happen earlier. I was ready for it, but I let my guard down. I feel stupid for complaining about this, but I need you guys to tell me what you think.

Thanks my lovers.