So, I dont know what to do. I want to move in with Jesse as soon as I can. I'm tired of Madison, and I want to be happy. I know that it has only been 2 months, but it seems like soo much longer. And I hate sounding like a love sick teenage girl(even though I am a guy), but I think this could last. Yeah, we can get on one another's nerves, but if you don't fight, then something is wrong. I know that I am clingy, I worry too much, and that I have self confidence issues. He is materialistic, a little condisending, and has little patience, but I feel that sence we both know this, and have talked about these issues, that we can last, for a while at least.

He wants me to move in with him, and I really want to move in with him too. I am going to, but I just have a issue with my mother. She doesn't officially know that I am gay, but I know that she knows. The school called home, talked to her a couple years ago for holding my ex-boyfriend's hand. I knew the consoler very well, and was friends with her daughter. I talked to her about the situation one day, and she told me that she told my mom everything.

Then the other day she asked me how Jesse was doing. I know about ten Jesse/jessicas, I asked which one. She said, "Your boy...the one by Erin." This is after he spent one weekend with us. That clenches the fact that she knows in my head. I know that she loves me, and will never stop being my mother, but I am still afraid of what will happen when I tell her.

What should I do? I need to tell her, and I want to before I leave to live with him. But I am terrified....